Tuesday, 31 August 2010

Random questions & Notes to self and the world



Question: how long does it take a human being to achieve or reach the “mission” of his life?
And also how long does it take you to identify it in the first place?
Do we men, seriously THINK good before we say I WANT TO HAVE A BABY? how do you know that you did all ur preparations if you didn’t have a baby before?
I love my religion, so do a lot of people….”they love their own religion” why are we fighting then?
God exist, this is a fact for me, and actually it’s a belief. And guess what? I just realized WHY is there a country and people we don’t KNOW, still dying in hurricanes and floods. Answer is in Quran

How is responsible of Writing traditions? He should be fired and replaced with a younger man and woman.
Teachers are as essential as Water and air….they are responsible of fresh and raw brains , those brains will control the future, hence will also determine how are they(teachers) are going to spend their retirement years. (is it going to be WAR & hunger or Peace & prospers time)

Money is EVERY thing for me, but for someone els, Health is everything. Athierd person would say
I would give all my money and half of my life and be able to walk again on my legs (a USA former President)
I love you Marcia Novo Lopes it’s a fact and a believe

Monday, 23 August 2010

thank you GOD






Wahuauaha
This is how I feel, Thanks god it’s a nice and very good positive feeling.
Well, on the contrary of all the current circumstances I feel good.
The past 9 months, or let’s say since November 2008 I have been from bad to worse .Losing jobs, issue with money, car problems you name it I have been through it .But don’t be fooled my SON, such tough times are made to make us, to define who we are and to give the final sculpture of your personality its Shine.
In all this mess I will keep on repeating (MY WIFE WAS and STILL is a HERO)
Thank you my love for being my support, as a Taurus I OUGH YOU MY LIFE. And when a Taurus is devoted, he could within a heart beat kill himself just to satisfy his loved one and protect her
Away from the entire Horoscope thingy .I am here to note this moment
Am in the KNPC building in Ahmadi, Car needs minimum 100 KD to be fixed, just received my Termination latter yesterday. It might look dark, but worry not my son, for I am armed with Faith and positiveness of the coming future.
Inshalla I will start a new job, pay all my dues and keep on rolling. Soon inshallah I will be traveling to the most exotic location on this planet BRAZIL one of the countries that I have never even dreamed about stepping foot there, visiting my wife`s family. In my current work STATION heheh
I have been able to encounter or let’s say conclude some important concepts.
A) Uneducated Boss or a manager is a big NO NO because they didn’t develop the notion of Courage, teamwork and trust
B) Don’t let your temper lead your action..you take control of that and always leave on good terms
C) Once you spot a lire, keep your distance, they are not even worth looking at
D) Don’t take people for granted, specially the ones you think they are on your side.
E) And finally, don’t expect that people will pay your money if you don’t ask for
F) Once you lose respect for your boss or when you just can’t relate to the job you are doing, it just doesn’t make sense, or it’s went unappreciated. it’s time to review your location and see if you have better options
Now that I have been talking nonstop …I guess me should go do some home work, PRAY, Read my holy Quran and be thankful for every thing

Tuesday, 6 July 2010

WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU WAITING FOR






Yes
This is how I feel now a day
Like I am almost going to get a gun and BAAAM my head
GOD dam it man, its taking way too much for this fucking life to get back in shape.
I am supposed to be old enough to be pay for my own mother fuckn house. even that I can’t do
Why the hell cant I….you can’t blame anyone, it’s just the way things go, up and down.
But seriously I feel like I am living in a drama movie I wana bitch slap this director and tell “WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU WAITING FOR, CAN WE GET SOME COMEDY FOR GOD`S SAKE”
I am dreaming about going to the beach, or having some days off in a POSTIVE ENERGY place like a hotel or a resort and just indulge myself in some summer activities, sea food, beach, cold Beer and music all night. Financially I am Broke. Mybe it’s a signal that I should put an end to this “job search I am dong and for once look towards what I really want to do “it has to be something that involves physical activity because I get irritated if I bottle up my energy for long time.
So for the sake of wishful thinking

a) I want to live in a another country Dubai or Egypt
b) I want ti travel to Brazil and have a kick ass nice time doing nothing but dancing and drink cipernya
c) I want to own my fitness studio
d) I want to write my book
On a side note all these SELF help books like the secret and Robin Sharma and steven covey are nothing but BULLSHIT until further notice

Tuesday, 8 June 2010

منذ عدة ايام استوقفنى سؤال...

منذ عدة ايام استوقفنى سؤال....

كعادتى ,لدى الكثير من الاسئلة ولكن لهذا السؤال وقع مختلف
اود ان اوجه هذا السؤال لكل الرجال الذيين ولدوا بين 1930 و 1960
بجميع اللغات...لكل من كان له يد فى صياغة التاريخ
مسلم او مسيحى او يهودى او حتى ملحد
عربى او اجنبى ابيض او اسمر ...
اين نذهب من هنا ؟ اين يمكننا ان نتجه؟
انا اعتبر من الجيل الثانى من المهاجرين من مصر...(.نحن الان بصدد نمو الجيل الثالث خارج الاراضى المصري)ة
سؤالى ....اين نذهب, اذا اتخذت الدين قالوا انك رجعى و الان استطاع الاعلام ان يسميهم بالارهابيين
ان اقبلت على الدنيا قاوا انك بوهيمى,ام انك انسان مادى.....
ايها الاباء,يا رجال الماضى يا قادة الدول.....يا من كانوا يتربون على ايادى العظماء.....
الستم انتم الجيل الذى اعلن ان الهجرة هى الحل؟
انتم من حارب وقرر ان الاستقلال التام او الموت الزوئام.....
وانتم من شاهد المسلمون يذبحون فى البوسنة
اليس من جيلكم صدام...الذى قتل و شرد و اشرف على الدمار
اليس من جيلكم من اعلن الحرب على الارهاب و اعتدى على العراق
اليس من جيلكم من قرر ان يغتال السادات بعد ان عبر و انتصر
الستم تنتم من قرر ان يطيح بالملكية المصرية املا فى العدل الاجتماعى....و ماذا كنت النتيجة الان
الستم انتم من قلتم ان عدوية هو انحطاط للاغنية المصرية....ما رأيكم فى شعبان و ابو الليف
الستم انتم من قال ان الشرطة فى خدمة الشعب....ما رايكم فى فيديو هتك عرض مواطن بالعصا
الستم انت من كتب اشعار يتغزل فى النيل....ما رأيكم فى ازمة النيل حاليا....
الم تعلمونا ان الدين طلب الا يغالى الاباء فى المهور.....ما رايكم فى طلبات الزواج التى تطلبوها انتم من الراغبين فى الزواج من بناتكم بعد ان كنتم تدفعون 7 جنيهات ايجار شهرى للشقة
انتم من سعر الماء و الدواء اغلى من البانجو و الحشيش !!!!!!
قد لا يسعفنى الوقت فى سرد مصائبكم.....و سرقاتكم و جرائمكم ...
ولكن يمكننى ان اقول انى اخترت.....اخترت ان اعلم ابنائى انه لا وجود لشىء اسمه "الماضى" او التاريخ"
لأنكم و بمنتهى البساطة ,اخطأتم...لقد كذبتم على و عاى ابناء جيلى....
و الان جاء دورى ان اقرر و ان اختار ما اكتب.....
لن اسمع أى نصيحة,و سأشكك فى كل معلوماتكم.....لانى انا من ادفع الثمن حاليا...انا من اعيش مع امراض و فيروسات خبيثة من اختراعكم....انا من يعيش مع اطفال ايتام بسبب حروبكم.....و غيرهم مرضى نفسين
انا من عليه ان يقلق على مستقبل الماء و الجفاف فى الارض....انا من عليه ان يعالج الكراهية التى زرعتوها فى عقولنا تجاه الغريب لانه يختلف عنى فى اللون او الدين

انا الان من سيقود......يقرر....يجرب....يكتب....
و بدونكم...

Thursday, 27 May 2010

some words for my LOVE




BABY,
Today while I was ,as usual, in my own world. It hit my mind a very important fact.
We have been together almost 2 years, if a person would like to summarize such a story like ours…I would prefer NOT to summarize….reason why ?
All the small details in all its moments and seconds are so valuable…
From the smile of the first kiss
To the tears of first time we fight…
The hours we spend in bed day dreaming….the countless times we hug each other seeking refuge from the curl world…the engorgement words
Holding hands while our fears push the tears to fall and show ing our weakness to the entire world,,,, but we r there for each other,
We back each other, we can’t stop kissing each other “and I’ll get to know how u like to be kissed “

Monday, 3 May 2010

again





And it’s time again
It’s this time of life where i just feel board of the disturbing questions I have on my mind…to many questions, and its never been answered\and guess what ,I lost hope of it being answered.
I just want to know how can I stop caring any more ..
I don’t want to care about my life when am 40 ,I wana worry about NOW

I don’t want to keep on imagining my KID, boy or a girl,
How and when ,and above all what am I gona teach to this new visitor on planet earth. I am worried about my parents, they are 2 steps close from being “past tense” have the accomplished everything they aimed for ?
Are they proud of me ? am i proud of myself ?
If no, why
If yes. then what for.
When am I going to stick to one path..stand up for all that I believe in
Am I an artist ?
Am I a rich politician
Am I a writer
Am I a normal happy father and a family man
Which way ,no one knowz ,it’s all a matter of future
This world we live in is amazing
Only when you come so close to the END of your time
You realize that NOTHING from the past things that made you go sad or angry or hurt MATTERS !!!! its all going to pass
Why worry ,,,,,

Wednesday, 21 April 2010

Lost in the FOG






Is it me or is it the dam weather or the fucken supplements I use for the Gym
Everyone talks to me on the phone; see that I am sounding down…
I answer,,(I am ok ) its all ok
But hues what
I feel like I am not capable of taking it
I am waiting time, going up and down
Back and forth, happy with a deep soar cut inside me…
I am almost 30…I never thought I will be saying that “I am 30” but guess what
Am getting old hehehe but only in numbers, I still feel the same ….
And this is defiantly not a good sign!!!!! u r supposed to change (and am talking dramatically )
My changes are not considered drastic.
Or maybe they are …and am just squeezing my own balls
This might be a serious issue
I saw people around me moving, changing countries changing careers and jobs
CHAAAAAANGE and am fuckin stuck in this shit hole.
Am tired of dealing with liars, people who don’t respect or honor what they say
Am not capable of constructing a significant opinion about ME or my own goals or mission
Am LOST
Lost in the fog
And the anger is getting bigger and bigger
Its consuming my energy
Consuming my thinking
I just wana kick someone in the guts
And I want to scream