influence of SATURN return.....HOPE

So …..i was told that I will under the influence of SATURN return ….
If you know astrology you will know that it a MOTHER FUCKN HARD time heheheh
That became part of normal day. Since the end of Nov 08 until now.

I guess the only good side is, I developed a tendency to be calm from inside no matter what is going around me . Some things are under ur control and others are not. As For those things that you can’t control. You need not to worry. it’s just a wait of time and energy . if there is any mishaps that I did in my early twenties. I am on the place where I have to pay for it now.
And I face that with hope
A hope of finding the answer to the most valuable question of all.
What is my role in the big theater of life …
Which part suits me, politician? ,Writer? Actor, standup- comedian? Fitness instructor
What is it exactly? Where it is exactly and when am I supposed to start that.

Wait and see ….things will happen at the time it should happen

I feel peace, for a while

Peace is a state of mutual harmony between people or groups, esp. in personal relations and I will add to that …it’s a state of harmony between a person mind and his world surrounding him….

I feel peace, for a while

TO FUCK WITH LIFE

At 5 AM I just jumped out of a deep dream with one thing in my head .i Aint going to work today
Its just to frustrating and 2 ridiculous to keep on going in this loop over and over again. Disregarding all the good and positive things I have in my situation right now looked at the empty side of the cup. Woke up with an enormous anger inside me. Driving with no goal I ended up at my friend`s office ,he managed to somehow defuse this anger and frustration, with a mini lecture and few tips to change the VIEW I have for my world.
The hit line was “toughen up and don’t be ridiculous, part of becoming a man is going through this rough patch, god do this to so how far can u go in handling pressure “

its all fake

Life is fake….we live in a parallel world
We evaluate our life according to what we have….how much money we make
Where we live, what car we drive and who we hang out with. Those who claim they don’t see life this way .they are just acting to be different. Bottom line they are laying.
Frustration comes when you keep on trying to reach somewhere, or some goal, yet u keep on slipping. Falling and failing . I am the person who still has no defined mission
I don’t know what to do
Where to go
Or how am I gona solve this maze
This puzzle
I am frustrated and depressed