very old posts

this is something i wrote in 2006

You know when u watch a movie

And specially in this part when they do the slow motion part with a kick ass soundtrack that just say a lot more than the entire movie could have said

And u feel this rush of feelings coming to u

And u start searching in the corners of your mind for memories or life stories that are similar to what u r seeing coz u want to relate to what is happening in front of u on the screen…

I've always tried to do the same yet I just could not find any thing in my life that

Could play this music I need …

Nothing that triggers this smile or this silence

Or even any type of feelings

I miss my loud laughter

And with every sunrise I put on a smile on my face forcing my heart to fight back this scaring feeling of emptiness and loneliness with hope

A voice

A smile that shines on me…..

In such a moment all sort of questions

all sort question marks appear

And demands to be answered

Yet the answer remains hidden…

Hidden between few simple words….

Words …spoken only by her

Words that no on can hear but me

Words that has the answer to all asked and unasked questions