Lost in the FOG

Is it me or is it the dam weather or the fucken supplements I use for the Gym
Everyone talks to me on the phone; see that I am sounding down…
I answer,,(I am ok ) its all ok
But hues what
I feel like I am not capable of taking it
I am waiting time, going up and down
Back and forth, happy with a deep soar cut inside me…
I am almost 30…I never thought I will be saying that “I am 30” but guess what
Am getting old hehehe but only in numbers, I still feel the same ….
And this is defiantly not a good sign!!!!! u r supposed to change (and am talking dramatically )
My changes are not considered drastic.
Or maybe they are …and am just squeezing my own balls
This might be a serious issue
I saw people around me moving, changing countries changing careers and jobs
CHAAAAAANGE and am fuckin stuck in this shit hole.
Am tired of dealing with liars, people who don’t respect or honor what they say
Am not capable of constructing a significant opinion about ME or my own goals or mission
Am LOST
Lost in the fog
And the anger is getting bigger and bigger
Its consuming my energy
Consuming my thinking
I just wana kick someone in the guts
And I want to scream