I was always dreaming about breaking free, from this shit hole country I am living in
I wanted to feel some sort of anew sensation. I got tired from the same land escape over and over again. Got sick from people, the culture I am in. I needed a “change” a new direction. And I got offered a job in Sao Paulo Brazil. The country that you feel u can easily belong and blend in. a mix of craziness of cosmopolitan city and calmness of nature .
Honestly my reply to this was “I choked” I froze and decided to let go the opportunity of breaking free. Came to a new conclusion. I am more trapped than I ever thought I was.
I pity myself when I see her. She is very decisive .I pity my weak guts and my weak soul.
My guts can’t be followed and my soul and brain are no capable of constructing a purpose.
When you are pulled from all directions. It’s a vicious war.
Your enemy is actually living inside of you. Its fear..
Have you ever been able to concur fear?
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