It’s the end of 2011…….as we all see and know, but honestly I can't be more careless
This 2011 has already damaged a lot that I don’t really see any room for destruction any more . I am so not gona give a daam or plan jack shit….the hell with planning and the hell with list of whishes and the hell with every single ritual I used to do.
I am in the middle of NOW where , and alone ,,,really alone, the lovely partner swimming in another depressed diminution. And I am just standing ther
With the biggest question mark onver my head and wondering NOW WHAT ???
I always asked to move to another country with this exact weather coundetions.
But then….its reality chick. Where is the money,where is the job or the business
Where is the well established life? Where is the extreme 20 or 10 K monthly salary
Where is the big ass house and the car and the power ….
I guess the question should be, where did all these dreams or wishes go..
I love my religion and I believe in it…but I am getting weak..am trying to control my burst of anger and breaking in tears by praying and convincing myself that this is all for a reason…
But come one…its getting heavy and heavy and am just getting….frustrated

If I have a chance to wish,,,and if wishes do really come true.

I wish all my dreams come true